I WANT TO BE A DOLL

No...not a manequin or a doll a little girl plays with. I want to be a Doll/Active in the Dollhouse!

James Marsters...Dollhouse...The Guild...

James Marsters is going to Chicago Comic-Con again! I met him last year. It was his birthday. He was extremely nice (and I was just tagging along with my friend, I didn't buy an autograph)! His hand was hurt, so he couldn't shake hands properly, but he tried to. The attempts were funny. I'm excited to see him again. He commented on my friend's shirt and Nicholas Brendon commented on mine, so, lame though it may be, we are both going to have those same t-shirts.

Dollhouse comics:

I don't have them yet, but I haven't heard any good review so far. :( Also, they are pre-epitaph one but apparently, they do not deal with our main characters, only Mag and company. Boo... If I could choose what was in them, I would have Whiskey/Saunder's past revealed, I would have her story from when she left in early season 2 to becoming clyde to coming back as saunders to reverting to whiskey explained, I would also want to hear about Topher, Adelle and Echo's evolution as characters, as well as what went on in the world, what Echo and Paul were doing, I'd want to hear about the Tech heads and Anthony, as well as Safe Haven...I'll buy them anyway when I have the time to read them/ the money and then I'll review them.

In other news, one of the writers for Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog /Dollhouse/ the actress who played Kilo, Maurissa Tancharoen,  is going to be in The Guild!

Adelle Dewitt (aka Olivia Williams)

I just saw Olivia Williams on Friends! That was a surprise. I do miss "the dragon". She was at Starfury Echo2 this year (along with Fran Kranz [Topher Brink], Dichen Lachman [Sierra/Prya] and Amy Acker [Dr. Saunders/Whiskey] and Liza Lapira [Ivy]). I'm jealous of anyone who got to go. I have, however, met James Marsters, he was so sweet! And Nicholas Brendon (he complimented my Firefly related T-shirt)

"Victim"

"...And I ended up feeling like I was just as guilty as he was...like it was a crime we were committing together and every time someone calls me a victim, I feel like I'm the biggest liar in the world." Echo as Susan (portrayed by Elia Dushku) That is one of the most resonate quotes from Joss Whedon's Dollhouse.

I hate the word "victim". I despise it, especially when it is applied to me. I am not a victim. I am a person.

That quote gives me chills because it is exactly how I feel. Apparently, Jane Espenson, with Eliza Dushku's help, can express my own thoughts better than I can. On one hand, that is disheartening, on the other hand, at least someone sort of understands. There is some sexual assault awareness program happening on campus. I understand that awareness is an important thing, but all their blue ribbons and their huge posters with stories are such a trigger. I wonder, does my prejudice and ill will toward men make me just as bad of a person as the average misogynist (most men)? Hm...I guess this is why everyone thinks I am lesbian. Yes, I hate men because the vast majority are juvenile, annoying, egotistical, power-hungry, sadistic, arrogant beings, and I have family members who are gay, but I am not sexually attracted to women. Maybe I am A-sexual.


Dear Rossum,

Where is the dotted line? Show me where to place my pen and you can have 5 years. You don't even have to pay me! Not that they would ever pick me...

On the subject of quotes: "I'm not broken." Damn right, I AM NOT BROKEN! Stop trying to fix me. I am not some damsel in distress, I'm not the weakest link, I am not damaged goods.


I know I'll never be as thin as Amy Acker:

BUT if I can't be thin, why can't I at least be beautiful like Miracle Laurie? :

I do not mean to imply Amy Acker is "just thin", like Miracle Laurie, she is beautiful. AND of course, both are extremely talented :)

I know this jumped around a lot, but that is why it is called "ramblings". As I've said, I'm not eloquent. I also need to work on being clear and linear. I would love to be a writer, but I don't even know where to start. I'm bummed because there is a screenwriting class at the local community college back home but it is only offered during the regular school year. There is a play writing class here but I have to be a junior and I may have to be a theatre major to get in to the class. Regardless, I wish I could find something I am good at. So far, no such luck, sure I enjoy psychology, but I am average. I want to know if I'm talented at anything.  

I should be reading a psychology textbook....

I decided to re-make a blog instead of studying for exams (I've imported posts from a blog I deleted). I'm a sophomore psychology major and a self-professed geek. I'm thinking about law school or graduate school for a PhD in psychology. I'm in love with behavioral psychology right now. The idea of becoming a behavior analyst is appealing at the moment. I'd also love to write novels or screenplays for TV shows. It seems like it would be like writing fanfic for a living! Jane Espenson (blog: http://www.janeespenson.com/), writer for Warehouse 13, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Battlestar Galactica and Dollhouse, is a model of mine right now. Unfortunately, I am not eloquent. :(

I'm considering hosting a CSTS (Can't Stop the Serenity- http://www.cantstoptheserenity.com/about/history-2/) event in September at my university. It would involve a screening of Serenity and lots of yummy snacks and discussion with a suggested donation amount. I figured no one would come if I made a ticket price. I'll donate cash regardless of whether I set it up. Among other things, I'd need permission from the university to use a venue, permission from FOX for a public showing and I'd need to register with CSTS. It would take some work, but if I can drum up some interest around here I think it would be fun and it is a great cause. The money generated by CSTS events goes to Equality Now (http://www.equalitynow.org/english/about/about_en.html) which is a group dedicated to women's rights around the world. Joss Whedon, the writer of Serenity, is a big supporter.


I feel a little bit pathetic making a blog, but too bad, we all have needs I guess :p

A few rad links...

If you or someone you know likes Firefly (R.I.P) and you cross-stitch you can make a cool pattern with the crew!

http://www.etsy.com/listing/66541533/pixel-people-firefly-serenitys-crew-pdf


Fascinating book my Michio Kaku! It addresses time travel, aliens, telepathy, telekinesis, perpetual motion machines, alternate universes and more...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Physics_of_the_Impossible


A neat blog entry that marries Dollhouse, philosophy and other Whedon shows, worth the read!
*MAJOR SPOILERS for Dollhouse, Buffy and Angel*

http://themothchase.wordpress.com/dollhouse/

Who is the crazy geek?

The Geek: Thanks to my dad, older brother and cable TV at Grandma's I grew up on a healthy diet of Dune, Stargate SG1, Roswell, Sabrina the Teenage Witch, and Charmed. I'm a fan of Asimov, Marion Zimmer Bradely, Michio Kaku, Joss Whedon and many others. I'm studying psychology and I'm seriously thinking about going to grad school to do reasearch in Neurobiology.

(See: "I Should be Reading a Psychology Textbook..." for more)