Wow

Thanks to someone commenting on a post *gasp* I'm back. :)

Update:

I'm taking time off school right now because of ED and depression. :( My mom keeps mentioning treatment. 


I hate her mixed messages. Most days she could care less if I finish a meal, when I was on weight gain or soon after treatment, she was militant. However, now that I am fat, it is okay to not eat.

What is worse is that she came home while I was cleaning dishes from a failed binge (some of the ingredients where bad) and she says, "Oh, good! You were saved by the bad vegetable oil!" Then, not 10 minutes later, I said I was going to use a separate plate for one of my vegetables for dinner because I don't like it touching my other food. So, she says, "That sounds like a food ritual. Would Remuda let you do that?"

To which I reply, "No. Good thing I'm not at Remuda."

Then she says, "Well, if you keep heading this way, you will be"

WTF??? Am I being too sensitive? Plus, after dinner (and after a mini-lecture about me having to prove I am ready to go back to school in the fall), she was going shopping and she asked if we should get coffee cake for a weekend away. I asked what she was thinking and she said, "If we can to be beautiful for the wedding (my brother's!!), we shouldn't"

One of my good friends got into a great school! I'm a little jealous because I want to go there for either law school of grad school in psychology.

I should be reading a psychology textbook....

I decided to re-make a blog instead of studying for exams (I've imported posts from a blog I deleted). I'm a sophomore psychology major and a self-professed geek. I'm thinking about law school or graduate school for a PhD in psychology. I'm in love with behavioral psychology right now. The idea of becoming a behavior analyst is appealing at the moment. I'd also love to write novels or screenplays for TV shows. It seems like it would be like writing fanfic for a living! Jane Espenson (blog: http://www.janeespenson.com/), writer for Warehouse 13, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Battlestar Galactica and Dollhouse, is a model of mine right now. Unfortunately, I am not eloquent. :(

I'm considering hosting a CSTS (Can't Stop the Serenity- http://www.cantstoptheserenity.com/about/history-2/) event in September at my university. It would involve a screening of Serenity and lots of yummy snacks and discussion with a suggested donation amount. I figured no one would come if I made a ticket price. I'll donate cash regardless of whether I set it up. Among other things, I'd need permission from the university to use a venue, permission from FOX for a public showing and I'd need to register with CSTS. It would take some work, but if I can drum up some interest around here I think it would be fun and it is a great cause. The money generated by CSTS events goes to Equality Now (http://www.equalitynow.org/english/about/about_en.html) which is a group dedicated to women's rights around the world. Joss Whedon, the writer of Serenity, is a big supporter.


I feel a little bit pathetic making a blog, but too bad, we all have needs I guess :p

Who is the crazy geek?

The Geek: Thanks to my dad, older brother and cable TV at Grandma's I grew up on a healthy diet of Dune, Stargate SG1, Roswell, Sabrina the Teenage Witch, and Charmed. I'm a fan of Asimov, Marion Zimmer Bradely, Michio Kaku, Joss Whedon and many others. I'm studying psychology and I'm seriously thinking about going to grad school to do reasearch in Neurobiology.

(See: "I Should be Reading a Psychology Textbook..." for more)